Sunday, April 22, 2018

A Woman in Her Thirties Turns Forty

Well, I think it’s safe to say that my mojo for this blog began its slow death around my 38th birthday. I guess that is to be expected- ten years is a long time to keep a blog going. When I look back on my first posts, back when I was still unpacking wedding gifts in Palo Alto and still adjusting to the culture shock of moving back to the US from China, I hardly recognize that youngster. Much has happened, as it always does.

Isn’t it wonderful?

I had it in my mind that the last six months would be a strong finish. Weekly updates, witticisms, etc. But the truth is that I’m tired, you’re tired, and blogs are becoming a thing of the past. More than that, my kids are getting older. I’m getting very protective of their privacy and mine. I’ve lost that blogging-loving feeling.

In May I turn 40. Will I start a Woman in Her Forties blog? Nah. I hope that’s cool.

I thought about making a list as my closing blog- 30 things a woman in her thirties knows or does or says. On sleepless nights I’ve begun this list, and it always winds up long and pedantic and overly focused on comfortable shoes. The truth is that as far as this blog goes, and this format goes, and this way of communicating goes, I’ve said what I felt was logical and needed to be said. I have been as authentic as I’ve known how to be, and if there’s one thing a woman in her thirties knows it’s that authenticity is the key to all sorts of happiness.

I’m proud of what I’ve written, even the parts that aren’t perfect. And the letters to my kids. I’m so flippin’ glad I did that for them. Anna, Aaron, someday when you read those letters know that I meant each and every word of them and always will, no matter what the next (hopefully many) decades bring.

I’m a woman in my thirties for only a few more weeks, and I can say truthfully that when it comes to the next decade, bring it. There are more stories to tell and much more life to live, and I plan to do just that, just not here.

So stay tuned, all ye women in your whatevers. You are beautiful, life is beautiful, and every day is a gift, so quit it with your wishing and hoping and start doing. I believe in you. Thank you for believing in me, all these wonderful years!

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